I’m excited to share with you a new series I’m starting called, “Talk Till Dawn”, I want this to be about my everyday life, the things I’m reading, eating, my everyday ups and down, along with photos that I’ve taken over the week.
My life and home is far from perfect even though I always share with you pretty home decor picture. Now from time to time I’ll give you a look at how things can get out of control like everyone else’s life.
Hi everyone, it’s time for a recap of my November. I know I’m a couple of days late getting this out but honestly I just forgot to post it. I’ll warn you now this won’t be an upbeat post but it’s time I share with you what I’ve been struggling with and I’m assuming many of you may be too.
This has been an awful year; our world is in such a state that there are days I seem to cry about everything. I’m struggling with extreme anxiety and depression, some days I have to force myself to get anything accomplished.
I’ve had a hard time with my Grama Red, she’s in rehab due to her hip popping out of place and being there to strengthen her leg muscles. I can’t go visit her due to the VIRUS, she’s blind and depends on her family on a daily basis. I’m heartbroken I can’t be there for her. I call her twice a day every day to check on her but it’s not even close to being the same as seeing her, taking her doughnuts, and watching here enjoy her nightly bloody mary.
This is so unfair that our elderly are being kept from their loved ones when they need us most. She is 101 and taking it like a real trooper but I fear that she’ll eventually break too before she’s recovered. I do everything to encourage her and let her know how much I miss her and how proud of her I am that she’s doing all she can to recover and get home. I put on a happy face, and voice even though I’m dying inside.
I know people who have died alone in a hospital because loved one can’t be with them and my heart just can’t take it any longer. I haven’t been on social media for a year and I now don’t even read the news it just makes my anxiety worse. I’ve never been like this before in my life.
I can’t sleep or eat and my mind is in a fog some days. I seldom leave the house only to get a few groceries and go to church. Thank God for church it’s the only time my heart isn’t heavy and I feel close to others that are struggling like I am. If you have a spare prayer I’d appreciate you sending one up for me.
I do know a huge portion of our population feels like I do right now and its so sad. I’m thankful I have God, a family, food in the freezer, a roof over my head, and friends because so many don’t have what I have. I’ve never had those winter blues from lack of sunshine and cold Michigan days but I sure know what people mean now when they make mention of them.
I did just a little decorating for winter in the house, I didn’t even put up a tree, that’s why I’m not calling it Christmas decorating. I’m not feeling very festive so I hope you’ll keep dropping in to read my posts without all the Christmas glam this year. Knowing you’ll drop by is a big reason I keep on writing and I enjoy all your comments.
Thank you for listening today and God Bless you all!