The battle, does it ever end? Why can’t I just go to bed one night fat and wake up the next morning skinny? And after turning the big FIVE-O it’s an even bigger battle! Yes, I’m talking about weight loss. I’ve been terribly skinny and I’ve been way to fat in my life and would like to find a happy balance that doesn’t require always covering up a tummy bulge, if you know what I mean? I’m an all or nothing kind of gal, I know how to eat right and can stick with clean eating and I know how to exercise something I’m willing to do daily but with age it seems to have all changed. I’m not looking to be a fashion model I just want feel comfortable with myself.
That being said, I’m going to share with you my deepest darkest secret that only a few people in my life are aware of. I’ve decided to spill the beans and no longer be ashamed of my past, so here it goes….
I suffered with anorexia from the age of 13 to 32, the way I controlled my life was by starvation. I wasn’t one to ever vomit, I just didn’t eat at all. I was always amazed by how long I could go without food. There were times I’d go 2 weeks with nothing to eat just drink diet pop (which was probably killing me anyway). At the age of 32 I was wearing kids size clothing and my hubby and bff had had enough. I was checked into a Christian rehab (not voluntary I must say) so they could “FIX” me! At that time I had no idea why I did IT so how do you fix something that wasn’t broken in my opinion?
I’m not going to drag out all the details of rehab but I will say I’m not “FIXED” I just learned a new way to cope. But I do feel after all those years of starvation I screwed my body’s metabolism up and no matter what I do I can’t control my weight, it’s up and down all the time! I have much more to tell you, so stay tuned for part #2 of the weight loss journey and the things I’ve learned about myself. (I don’t want this post to turn into a novel, so I’ll spread it out over time).
Before I go I wanted to share with you one of my favorite, easy, filling, and tasty breakfast recipes I have often. I sometimes even have it for dinner if hubby is out of town and I don’t have to cook that night. Below is a list of the products I use and as far as the protein powders go, the two you see are my favorite because of the flavor and ingredient list.